Getting Help

It has been, as you can see, almost exactly three months since I have posted. In that time, I have decided to take a permanent position here at JNL.

What this means in regards to my weight loss efforts is as follows:

• I need to be more careful about eating fast food on the way to work and on the way home
• Still avoid the vending machine/goodies in the cafeteria
• I am eligible to join Weight Watchers At Work

So on Jan. 17th I went to my very first Weight Watchers meeting. I had a few inhibitions about this mainly because when I was in TOPS, a lot of people would join and say, "I did Weight Watchers for a while... etc etc". So I guess I wasn't expecting to be successful. And being part of a weight loss group forces me to acknowledge that I'm fat (duh). When I weighed in, I was somewhat surprised to learn that I have gained about 25 lbs since I started working here at JNL.

On the positive side, I really like the program. I am actually eating my five servings of fruits/vegetables you're supposed to eat, and drinking lots of water. I know that writing everything I eat down helps me to stay on track. That has worked for me in the past. The thing about the WW flex points plan is that not only do I write what I eat down, but it helps me know if I'm eating the right amount. And the points are relatively easy to keep track of.

So yesterday was my first weigh-in, and I lost 5 3/4 lbs my first week. No big surprise there really. I went from eating whenever/whatever I wanted, to eating a controlled amount of healthy foods. I think I have gone to McDonald's twice since I joined. Once was for a fruit/yogurt parfait, and the second was for an ice cream cone w/ the family (which I had points for). This is in comparison to eating breakfast from McDonald's almost every day of the work week. My appetite seems to be lessening as well. Last night, V served me a small portion of lasagna, which I enjoyed, and then was full. This wouldn't have happened a week ago.

In the back of my mind I still feel like I will be fat until I die... I'm going to try not to think about my goal weight just yet.. just get through each day on program and exercise. The rest should take care of itself. When I get below 200, maybe I'll believe what I can do.